2002-12-07 ± 4:24 p.m.
yo tuve suenos sobre mi novio con muchas sanchas

I've been having these dreams (an intro like that sure pulls the reader in, eh?). Dreams that my boyfriend is cheating on me...not that he's off banging random chicks, but that he's dating women; my close friend, a math teacher I work with, random faceless girls. I also had a dream in which we had broken up and he had brought his new blonde and perky girlfriend to my apartment for approval (I know that I'm all "equality" and "to hell with prejudices" but for some reason I always feel threatened by perky blonde girls...my boyfriend doesn't even like blonde girls...I'm warped).

Point. It is obvious to me that these dreams are not about a fear that my man is "stepping out" on me...the nooks and crannies of my psyche are way too intracate and sophisticated to make such a straightforward and unmetaphoric declaration.

So...what be up with me?

Last night he and I agreed that the fear of his infidelity must represent my fear of us moving to Boston together...we talked about this at length. Fears and second thoughts and our excitement and our committment.

And last night, in my dream, he told me that he broke up with the two other girls he's been seeing.

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