2003-07-01 ± 12:40 a.m.
my mind is slowly turning to mush

I think I've hit a wall.

I feel as though nothing in my life is concrete. I should be more specific. I feel as if I have no concrete beliefs. Everytime I utter an opinion I'm retaliated against by the physicist brain of my boyfriend...constantly calling me out for inconsistencies or unsupported claims. Granted...he is usually right to question my reasoning (though his tone often leaves much to be desired), but sometimes he's not right. Sometimes I feel like he's inventing cracks in my logic...assuming too much and trying to trick me with fancy lawyer talk. Used to be when we had been together just long enough to start debating...things would feel even. He would say "I just can't get my grip on you...I can't pin you down." He was proud of the fact that his girlfriend could hold her own. Now any non-objective statment is met with head shaking and guffaws..."oh Kelly, how can you say that?" This isn't relationship therapy hour...I'm not really angry with him. I just feel clouded. Like perhaps before I was better at defending my ideas. Maybe 2 years out of college spent teaching verb conjugations has made me soft.

In that case, law school will begin soon enough...won't I be a prize fighter then.

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