2002-01-12 ± 5:14 p.m.
no no me gusta cucarachas

I just realised that the apartment that I've spent the last few months decorating...looks realy 80's american psycho-esque...and I don't mean that in a good way.

some of the empty 80's feel is unavoidable...there are two reasons for this....

1. the floor in my apartment is pink tinted rock tile.

2. when my parents drove my stuff down from Michigan they brought me a hand-me-down pink leather loveseat...straight from an 80's bourgeois living room.

In a stroke of genius (insert sarcasm here)I decided to furnish my apartment with cheap Ikea furniture...which in and of itself is not unfavorable...that I chose all light birch wood and chrome makes my apartment look like the place an 80's lawyer/coke-head would stash his trendy aqua-netted mistress.

but I must love it. I created it.

since my return from holiday break I've become a complacent machine. I've been working on lessons plans every weeknight til 11pm and I've yet to feel passionate about anything; teaching, eating, talking, contributing. I"m working hard...but I can't figure out why. I'm not depressed or apathetic...hmmm.

this morning I was reminded of an ani lyric "I killed a cockroach so big it left a puddle of puss on my wall/when you and I are lying in bed you don't seem so tall." unfortunately I was not reminded of this because somehow denis (who is 6'1) and myself (5'7) seem to be the same length lying down...the lyric came to mind as I was killing a cockroach the size of a plum on my bathroom ceiling. I had never seen a cucharacha before I moved here...(save at shedd aquarium in chicago)...now I can almost think about them without feeling itchy all over.

i can't believe i live in texxxas.

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