2001-12-17 ± 10:24 p.m.
bulima never looked so good.

after a quick trip to KFC with Dani to kill that once a year chicken strip and biscuit craving I found myself at home watching a video tape of myself teaching...immediate reaction? horror tears...do I really look like that? Sound like that?

I hope that the camera adds 10 or 30 pounds.

I know that I'm not a skinny girl...nor am I completely unsavory...but watching yourself on tape really makes you want to stick your finger down your throat and start doing sit-ups.

Right now I feel like my stomach has doubled in size and I'm completely dreading putting on the victoria's secret lingerie that I know denis got me for christmas.

yuck. I gotta kick this funk.

worrying about this shit is futile.

I've never been small.

I've never been ugly.

people like me the way I am.

But I feel like an out of shape slab of lard.

I need to start kick boxing again.

I need to be strong...

in so many ways.

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