2002-08-06 ± 8:47 p.m.
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after weeks of constant companionship...I'm finally home...home from boston, home from detroit....back to my bed and my bathtub and a to do list the size of the rio grande valley.

after dropping alowan at the airport today I went to the grocery store and reveled in the joy of buying whatever I'd like...not worrying about denis' insistance of meat at every meal or my parents' automatic cringing at anything bearing the words "soy" or "organic."

I have wine, I have cheese, I have more couscous than you can shake a stick at.

I've felt different as of late. I feel cognizant. confident in my thoughts and concise in my rationale.

this does not mean that I am not nervous as hell about standing before a class in two weeks or that I'm happy about spending another year in a place that can't (I should say doesn't...but I say can't) provide me with the places and people that I crave.

but I feel good about what I see in the future. I feel good about the nonchalance with which my 23rd birthday appeared this weekend, was appropriately celebrated and promptly dismissed.

I don't think that I'm as nice as I was a year ago...and (un?)fortunately it's because I'm smarter now.

I know who I am. and who you are not.

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