2002-01-19 ± 4:37 p.m.
the fast and the furious

there's nothing like depriving yourself to figure out what it is that you really want.

Today I officially began my "cleansing fast." What that means is that for the past two days I ate only fruits and vegetables and now I'm going to drink this tasty organic concoction (squeezed lemon juice, maple syrup and cayenne pepper) for at least the next ten days. The only other substances allowed to enter my body are water and "smooth move" all-natural laxitive tea.

why am I doing this?

1. because I want to get rid of all the toxins in my body and start fresh.

2. because I love the simple concept of pink and shiny innards.

3. because I'm bored and I wanted to see how self disciplined I could be.

right now all I can think about are really good foods that I'd love to be eating. I'm not hungry...I just want to eat because I'm not allowed to. It's exactly why I first tried smoking in high school.

I'm already kind of bored of the freedom that comes from not eating.

on a less weird note.

I've recently been assaulted by all of these realizations about my students and the lives they lead. We studied Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. this week and I realized that my students don't think that they're oppressed. They haven't a clue about the weight stacked on top of their community's bubble. Here I am, going in to work every day with my heart bleeding all over the blackboard...and all my students are thinking about are lip gloss, gang signs, boys and girls.

I can't decide which should be better. Having a room of students cognizant of the injustices holding their heads underwater or a room full of chatty 16 year olds excited about the new Shakira album.

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