2004-09-29 ± 11:21 p.m.
what's love got to do with it?

It's easy to lose yourself when you fall in love. And not because the other person is pushing you change (that wouldn't really be love now would it).
You lose yourself because you start to sacrifice things to spend more time being cuddly and schmoopy.
There is a time, however, when you begin to realize that you have no hobbies and that when you're feeling insecure or downtrodden and your lover is not around, you've no one to reach out to.
We all know that when I say you I mean me.
I haven't completely lost myself. I have friends to confide in and activities that I enjoy doing alone. But I find myself electing to stay at home on the couch to hang out with D when I could be out enjoying the city. When I told a friend that I wouldn't be attending a weekend party because D was returning from working on a trial, I was informed that my "lameness factor" was "approaching infinity."
Like most things, I guess it boils down to balance.
D has been out of town a lot recently and though the nights can be lonely, I've been reminded of how OK I was before we were together. So cliche to say, but I remembered that I was a strong independent woman before and that I should still be one today.
So I'm going to make a conscious effort to reintegrate some of my old habits...I'm geting sorta boring in my old age

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